Nothing to Lose

I can’t tell you what I wanna be
Cuz honestly
I haven’t figured out
How to navigate
The roads that lie front of me
What I want in life
Is slowly movin outta reach
Its Looking like my destiny
Is shaping up to be a tragedy
Driven by anxiety
I’m just trying to quiet all the
Voices that’s inside of me
They talk to me and lie to me
And tell me I’m not good enough
To be who I aspire to be
I’m spiraling
But silently
I keep it bottled up
Until it drives me to insanity
Cuz if I speak my peace
Ill send my family into panic
So ill let it make me manic
I’m a man I can handle it
Until I can’t
And everything around me starts to crumble

Ima risk it like there’s nothin to lose
That’s just how I feel I got nothin to prove
Nothing left to do but to say it to you
Now I’m making a move
I got nothing to lose

Ima risk it like there’s nothin to lose
That’s just how I feel I got nothin to prove
Don’t wanna run away so I’m facing the truth
Now I’m making a move
I got nothing to lose

self-prescribing medicine
I’m waking up in hospitals
wishing I was dead again
Can’t overcome these obstacles
I always end up settling
And I don’t think its possible
Now they keep tryna box me in
I’m running out of oxygen
I know they want to help me
But they keep doing in the opposite
The monsters in my closet
Livin deep in my subconscious
Keep on creeping to the top and I just don’t know how to stop it
It’s like an anchor on my ankle
And I’m sinking to the bottom. 
I keep drowning out my thoughts
By slowly drowning in this bottle

Ima risk it like there’s nothin to lose
That’s just how I feel I got nothin to prove
Nothing left to do but to say it to you
Now I’m making a move
I got nothing to lose

Ima risk it like there’s nothin to lose
That’s just how I feel I got nothin to prove
Don’t wanna run away so I’m facing the truth
Now I’m making a move
I got nothing to lose